.we can do anything.

“if we can do this, we can do anything”

my friend shannon said,

as we contemplated roller blading

off the two foot jump at classic skating.

seriously, it took us at least fifteen minutes

to convince ourselves to finally do it.

and then when we finally went off the jump,

we broke the camera while filming

our only documentation of the

courageous feat of the two feet.

i also remember shannon and i

(clearly we have quite the adventures together)

hyperventilating in line

as we finally decided it was time we went on

the colossus rollercoaster at lagoon.

the big one with the double loops that flip you upside down.

the best part was,

was that we got cut at the very

end of the last group who went on,

so… that meant that we were at the very front of the next group.

two, crying, sweaty-palmed ten-year old girls

at the tippy top of the rollercoaster.

both of us looked at each other and at the same time said,

“if we can do this, we can do anything.”

and with white knuckles hanging on for dear life,

lost voices from screaming,

and a debatable change of pants,

we sure did it.

i’ve realized more and more how much

that phrase has become a mantra for my life.

whether it was eating escargot, jumping off a 50 ft. cliff,

or even just forcing myself to get out of bed early

to face a difficult week ahead,

my first thought has always been,

“if i can do this, i can do anything.”

not gonna lie though…

sometimes my motivation was definitely for street cred.

just to casually bring up in conversation the cool things i’ve done.

and not gonna lie either…

i’m 95% scared 95% of the time.

but that 5% convinces me i have to.

that if i don’t do it, i’ll be disappointed

or always wonder what could have been.

and when you tell yourself,

“if i can do this, i can do anything”

it almost makes you believe that in that moment,

it may be the last hard thing you’ll ever have to do,

and life will be a little easier from here on out.

and in a way,

it kind of is like that.

for instance,

i did something this week, i didn’t think i would ever do.

sure, skydiving is on everybody’s bucket list,

but i was always all talk, no game.

i liked the idea of skydiving in theory,

but never thought it would actually happen.

i’m sure grateful for friends who get uh.maz.ing groupon

skydiving deals though, and spontaneously ask me

if i wanted to go the very next morning.

it was just enough time to not even have time

to second-guess the impulsive decision.

so, there we were driving to moab at the crack of dawn.

and due to my directionally challenged ways,

i was sure we’d get lost.

and we definitely did.

but i didn’t anticipate getting back on track so quickly either.

we got to the airport,

met the instructors,

signed our lives away,

(along with cheaper life insurance)

put on a suit,

and it wasn’t until i was 10,000 feet in the air

about to jump out of a plane

that it finally hit me.

“if i can do this, i can do anything.”

the fear only lasted a split second.

falling at terminal velocity

kind of forces you to embrace the moment.

plus, if you know about my testimony of flying,

that was just the cherry on top to the whole experience.

there was nothing but pure joy when my feet hit the ground.

because when you do one thing you never thought you could,

it’s not so hard anymore.

i wanted to do it again right after too.

isn’t it interesting how a once intimidating thought,

can become kind of an addiction once the fear is conquered?

on the drive back, i thought a lot about what i just experienced

and a lot about fear.

granted, fear definitely can be a catalyst

to help physically, spiritually, and emotionally

protect us,

but what kind of

people would be like if we were always

totally and completely fearless?

from conquering heights,

to trying new foods,

to having zero inhibitions about what others thought,

to running marathons,

to performing,

to being unpopular for doing the right thing,

to setting seemingly crazy goals,

to being honest with yourself…

more often than not, i’ve come to realize that

if i’m afraid of,

or think i can’t do something,

then as my good friend nike would say,

i should probably

JUST DO IT.

“if we can do this, we can do anything.”

you better believe it.

michelle and i pre-skydive. and aren't those 80s jump suits sahweeeet?

in the plane!

"cause i'm freeeee! free fallin!"

we did it, we did it. we really, really did it.